untitled, by n.smith

untitled
by n.smith

why can't i put my hope in You, like i know you want me to?
why can't i see beyond the world that hides me from your Truth?
Your light should guide my faithful heart when faithless times arise.
instead i turn to earthly thoughts that fill my mind with lies.
money, work, politics, over-achieving success.
people, church, recognition and power, earthly relationships.
if my hope truly lied in you, then my world would not be about me.
but my selfish pursuit of fleshly desires is a burden i wear on my sleeve.
overcommiting...demands of this world...be in 3 places at once.
these diseases seem fatal, no cure in sight, how do i overcome?
remove the clutter, renounce the guilt, reveal my eyes to Your will.
take control of my life in a mighty way, leaving me naked and vulnerable.
crush my stubborness, destroy my pride, and relieve my self-control.
send me crashing to my knees, submitting to you my soul.
give me rest in your awesome hope, give me joy in your contstant presence.
let Your purpose be reflected in all that i do , as i drift endlessly in your essence.

Acts 2:25-28
I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me. No wonder my heart is filled with joy, and my mouth shouts his praises! My body rests in hope. For you will not leave my soul among the dead or allow your Holy One to rot in the grave. You have shown me the way of life, and you will give me wonderful joy in your presence.